What a lot of honest, serious, intelligent talk that has been mixed in with the noticable animosity.
Any racism that I allow in myself is honestly based in fear. I hope to be able to be a better man. It's not easy in hectic crowded, diverse NJ. I was out and about today and saw all kinds of races. I was not impolite to anyone, except the illegal lady who cut me off on Rte 22, I flipped her the bird
I would have flipped anybody the bird except any larger burly dudes
So it takes composure and being centered in yourself to get through a day without putting out bad vibes.
On the rare occaisions when I go to NYC, my racism dissolves inthe immense overwhelming magnificence of the city. There is an exitement and kind of underlying commaraderie there, it's like everybody is feeling like a cool cat to be there. But I'm usually glad to get back to the burbs. I have a neice that lives on the upper east side, I don't know how she does it. she commutes on a train and works for The City of New York.
So thanks for helping me consider a lot of ideas rather than just remain stagnant in repetitive thinking. Franco B's post about adapting to change hit a nerve. I desperately want the USA to be like it used to be. That's probably not gonna happen, and I may have to move much farther away from NYC to find the peace I desire. If I don't relish so much diversity, I have to take responsibility for making a change, which in itself seems overwhelming. I think Christianity is one of the hardest religions to embrace. Jesus said something like, "However you treat even the biggest dirtbag, that's how you're treating me." Man , is that a tough one!
I got more work lined up for next week today. I got a deal on a couple of small tools to fix up. Can't complain.