You're never alone, Dave. Look around you. All things and people, even here.
Different, yes. But never alone.
Hang in there!
I am truly ALONE,i do not expect many to understand the concept,but having other people around is not the cure for being ALONE.
Spending time on the forum does nothing for the aloneness,it only helps pass the time. Having customers come to my shop helps pass the time,it does nothing for the ALONENESS. I could have 100 people with me 24/7 & still be ALONE.
It is hard to explain to those who have never experienced the loss of 1/2 of themselves.I have come to understand that lots of married couples do not talk much between themselves. I spent much time talking with my wife & listening to her,it is very hard to do without that special 1/2 of me to talk with about everything.
Try going to bed ALONE each nite for 10 months & then try to convince yourself that there is no such thing as being ALONE.Or eating 3 meals each day..ALONE, or sitting around during your off time,ALONE. When i need to push a disabled hydrostatic lawn tractor with cold oil, my wife is no longer by my side helping me to push the tractor into the shop,i am truly ALONE.
Try convincing your self that it is only different,that you are not ALONE when you read some really good quote & decide to share it with your wife... and then you realize... oh crap,she is dead,i am ALONE.Yes, i can share some things with my son who still lives with me,but we have different interests in life,he is not my other 1/2, he has his own life to live,his own things to do.
The list could go on,only those who have experienced the loss of a spouse by death can TRULY understand.My father was killed in a farming accident when i was 16,i always thought that i knew how folks felt that lost a spouse to death,i have come to find that i had only experienced a glimmer of the pain associated with losing ones spouse.